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Her name is Heidi..♥
Her Birthday is on Jan17th.. ♥
She's a Capricorn Girl.. ♥
Loves Sleeping & Shopping ♥
Lame at times :D
Loves Her Friends alot ♥
Has One Fragile Heart & she HATES it!
Really Want To Earn Alot Of Money..
& Someone to Love, Care & Dote Her..

Her Sadness:

I Wish I Had The Courage To Tell You Exactly How Much I Miss You )':

I'm Willing to Wait foryou

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6th of august 2009, is the day we broke up.. i really have no idea what had happened to us,

you're the guy i love most in my whole life, remember that you promised me to love me forever?

yeahs, i'm stupid, there's no forever in this world, nobody belives that, even me.. i don't.. i don't

belive it till i met you.. but look at what happened to us now? still remember how we know

each other? and where we met? until now, i still remember the first time when we saw each

other, and before you and i together, it's so memorable.. we weren't that close at first, till you

start disturbing me, and giving me funny nicks.. after that we starts to get so close to each other.

then few days later on, you suddenly never on for quite long, i didnt know why till you finally on,

then you told me you're having your exams. you on awhile, then you off-ed. and i still remember

the time we stayed up till very late, cause you said, you friend's birthday will be the next day in

the morning, and she's celebrating early.. and you gotta attend, and she's sakura.. i accompanied

you till you and i also fell aslp that time.. we were sitting in showa town, by that time, i already

starting to have this feelings for you.. but i never express it out, and i know you have this special

feelings for me too.. till the next day afternoon, when i on, you were there too.. you asked me

to look for you in the free market, in perion room.. and you were with andrew them, talking

about mandy.. i remember that time andrew's throwing out alot of trash, then i said ' lol so

many lapsap ' then andrew terasa, thought i say him lapsap, then started like wanna scold me,

but you sided me.. y0u said, she wasn't saying you lapsap lahs.. with the -.- expression.. andrew

called u to stop siding me, and asked you who am i.. you answered him ' she's my baobei ' you

remember? then some other day, we went aqua together.. we're sitting on the right side turtle..

then after that, you placed the christmas decoration star in the middle of us, saying that.. they

have their couple ring, we also have our couple ring.. so you placed one between us.. after that

day, everytime when i on, you will come to look for me.. and everytime when you on, i would

come to look for you.. then got another time, you never on for quite sometimes also, then when

you on, i shouted that ' I MISS YOUUU ! ' then you told me that you missed me too with T.T

expression.. i was so happy that time cause i've been missed by you too.. that time, i know i was

with arch and i don't know why.. remember pon10? that time, i was crying badly.. i really had

no idea what were i doing and thinking, but all i know is its just you that's on my mind.. i was

really worried that time, you look sorta gave up on me.. i even more sad.. but pon10 knows my

everything that time, that i really love you and missed you.. and when he sees me suffer,

so he came to talk to us, after eveyrthing settled, we're together.. i was so happy, i don't know

to describe that certain feelings i were having.. then when we're together, me and andrew

also became friends le.. then also that time we like got keep talking also, as in friends talking..

and when chee heen knows about it, he feels jealous. and when he on at night.. he went to

sleepywood, inside the sauna place, he was sitting all alone, i asked him what happned, he

doesn't want to tell me, but in the end, he still tell me, then i comfort him, ask him to trust me..

after that he trust me le, and he's okay already.. then another time, i failed my exam, i might

retain, and my if i do retain, my dad will take my laptop away, and i couldn't be online again..

i was so dam worried, cause as the next day, it was the report card day, i nver sleep for the

whole night, you accompanied me too.. you were sad and feeling down but you never show me

that you are.. you brought me lotsof places that i never been to.. bring me deep inside

sleepywood.. explore the funs together, do alot of interesting stuffs.. do you know how much

it means to me at that very moment when we're together..? i thought we really couldn't see

each other anymore.. afer half year together.. we started quarrell, it's almost like everyday..

then this girl joey suddenly came in, and trying to steal your heart away.. then after that is

fatty.. first sakura.. it's not that i don't trust you that time.. but, i'm afraid that your heart

wouldnt be mine one day.. then we started to quarrell about i'm not trusting you again, and also

you weren't happpy about me mapling everyday, cause you said it wasn't good for my health..

in the end, i changed myself for you.. because of you, i lost myself.. because of you, i've changed

so much for you.. then got one time, my house burnt.. that time i couldnt contact you, cause

your phone is with your uncle, need to get it fixed that time.. but i dont know why, eventhough

i know your phone wasnt with you, i still keep messagin and calling, hoping to contact you..

the next day you contacted me, you were somehow saying me in harsh words abit, it's like

you don't belive me about the incident i told you.. and night time, we were messaging, and you

were telling me that your gan mei passed away.. i was sad, because you concern about her

more than me, then you were mad because i said that how come it's like you concern about her

more than me, i might have died too, then you scolded me, how can you compare a dead girl

with you.. alot of people is even worst than you.. you still have your life, your parents and all

now, don't tell me you cant move on without computers all those..? then what about her mother?

her mother has lost her daughter.. i know, i was wrong, but that time, i was really hurt and i

need you, and was hoping that you woul comfort me.. i did not ask for much things, all i need

is just you to care about me.. but you didn't understand me.. and still scolded me when i was

really depressed.. after that time, slowly, we didn't contact for quite sometimes, cause

there were some problem with your phone, i was really scared that your feelings might fade.

but in the end we still got message, till this year.. i wasn't happy all the time for this year..

i'm down and sad, and i cried all the time when i think about you.. you didn't contact me. and i

never on msn much also, everytime i cry, i would tell myself.. ' heidi, enough, this will be your

vry last time to shed your tears for him ' but no.. i still cry for you, i keep on controllng myself..

not to cry, but the more i hold, the more i suffer.. and everytime when i sigh in messages, you

will be like, zzz can you stop sighing? it's so fake and like anoying.. how can someone who loves

you that sigh because of you be fake? after that time, i never sigh, i don't know if you really

notice that i really changed alot for you, everything you dislike, i will correct myself, i'm not

perfect, and may not be the girl that you were looking for.. but i'm a girl who loves you with all

her heart perfectly.. whenever i see or know about you putting another girl's name on your

nick, i will start thinking, why there's never my name on your nick already.. am i still exist or

no? then last week or maybe i forgot when, mann told you that i'm going for operation, but it

seems like you're not even concern about it.. she also told me that she asked you whether you

still loves me or not.. and your answer were ' i guess so.. ' do you know how much it hurts

that this answer came out from you..? we've been together for so long, 22 months, then i break

this r/s off.. been through so much ups and downs with you.. it's really not easy for me to put

down at all, but the longer i drag, the more suffers i get.. and the way you treat me, shows me

that you don't love me already.. and even if i didn't contct you.. i belive that you will not find

me either.. am i just a toy or what? am i really your girlfriend? everything you promised me,

ya you never break it.. you never leave me.. but you broke it silently instead.. so i chose to let

you go.. maybe it's better for both of us.. you were my longest and the one i loved most ever..

but am i? i starting to doubt.. there's one thing, i can really assure to you is that, i love you more

than you love me.. i cared about you more than you do.. bfore yes, you cared about me, be

there for me when i need you.. but not anymore.. i really do hope that we could really last

forever.. if ever we can start all over again.. to give each other another chance to start all

over, start a new life again, i really willing to..! i reallyy do.. but i don't think it would happen..

because i remember, you telling me that, if i break with you, will you come back to me, and

ask me for patch back.. your answer was a no.. you said because i break with you, means i don't

need you anymore, and if i don't need you anymore, why would you come back to me.. you

know? breaking up with you, doesn't means that i don't need you anymore.. it's because your

heart isn't with me anymore, so what's the point of keeping someone beside you when their

heart isn't with you.. and i know, your answer wouldn't change anymore bahs, even i talked to

you that day, you didn't even reply me.. i don't know why you did not.. not even a goodbye to

me.. i'm really happy that you loved me before.. cause being loved and missed and cared by

you.. it's really the most sweetest thing in my life.. but i can never have that moment anymore.

and there's some words, i cant never hear from you anymore too.. sorry chee heen.. sorry for

not being a good girlfriend.. hope you're happy with what you have now.. and goodluck for

your everything, your exams, your tournament.. must jiayou.. :') i can't be like how i supported

you before.. but i will still suport you in my heart, in my mind.. cause you're still the most

important person to me now.. take care.. and thanks.. 22nd anni, which is on 6th of august,

we should be happy celebrating with each other, if ever our r/s is like before.. but somehow..

we broke up on that day.. back to top?