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Her name is Heidi..♥
Her Birthday is on Jan17th.. ♥
She's a Capricorn Girl.. ♥
Loves Sleeping & Shopping ♥
Lame at times :D
Loves Her Friends alot ♥
Has One Fragile Heart & she HATES it!
Really Want To Earn Alot Of Money..
& Someone to Love, Care & Dote Her..

Her Sadness:

I Wish I Had The Courage To Tell You Exactly How Much I Miss You )':

I'm Willing to Wait foryou

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Baby & i .

i love this picture alot. we both look so happy inside. but, we can never judge a picture by just looking at it. behind every picture, there are alot of stories behind. happy ones, sad ones.. nobody knows. like this picture, it's just a picture. but am i happy? do you guys think i am? :) to be frank, my unhappiness is more than happiness. yes i am happy that i could meet him, since we're having a distance r/s. our last meeting was dec 29. after so long, can only meet him. the last time we met, relationship between me and him are just close friends. this time, we meet as couples. before going to singapore, i was really excited, we've been together for almost half year. quite sometimes ei? i won't feel nervous somehow.. but just really excited. i get so so happy when i see him.. that day was cool.. but when it comes to a little bit late at night, i somehow felt that.. something's not right, a sudden felt from him, treating me a little cold.. i know i'm the kind of girl who thinks so much. and yeah, so much negative thoughts in me. but, if he never give me this feeling, i wouldn't have this kinda thoughts right? times when i was in singapore, he stayed with me, accompanied me through the night. the first night, he was so nice, so caring, sweet and yeahs, we hugged each other to sleep. the next day.. somehow, just felt that, sigh i don't know.. times when i was in singapore, and before i went, it's so different. he was so effing sweet in those previous msgs before we meet, but after we met, his actions are just so different from the usual msgs. why? when i questioned him, he just said nothing happened, and it's im the one that thinks alot. but i don't think he treats his ex this way..? i think they're very sweet before.. sigh, speaking about his ex, i really break down alot. i've got no confidence in myself at all. do you know, how pretty his ex is? close to perfect ei? what about me? i'm nothing.. no looks, fat. and all, people says appearance aren't everything, he said he doesn't mind. but which guy wouldn't right? which guy don't want their own gf to be pretty right? ofcourse they wanna bring a pretty girl out and show off to everyone and let the whole world knows, that he has a pretty girlfriend. sigh.. well cut that crap and back to the topic, i never been happy after i came back from singapore. everything just seems to be so different compared to before. the day i left from his side, was my most regretful day. i shouldn't have listen to him, and just go in the departure hall.. i should've stay and accompany him till the very last call for boarding. what am i thinking back then? why would i listen to him? the moment when he turn and walk away.. do you know how much it hurts to watch someone you love walking away slowly from you..? i just couldn't bear, so i just turn away and go in.. the moment when i stepped into the departure hall, i begin to miss him so much, and that feeling kills me so much! and when i'm inside the airplane, i was crying so badly for the entire journey. the feelings HURT SO BAD, i could even die! i never been happy since the day i'm back. sigh.. i viber-ed him yesterday night, the feeling was so different. he said it's been quite so long tht he haven't call me. then i said yeah, don't he feel abit weird? he answered, abit. but i said, it's not just abit.. it was just a short conversation. after we hung up the phone, he texted me, he said he knows that i'm unhappy and he apologized. i began to cry after i read that msg.. then i start shooting everything out, i tell him whatever i wanna say and tell him how am i feeling, and what had happened to us.. he said nothing, and he will never hide anything from me.. sigh.. after that, all his msgs and everything gone back normal.. but still, feeling weird somehow.. )'= i really miss him so much.. miss laying next to him.. watching him from beside, laying on his chest.. hugg him, kiss him, hold his hands.. )'x by just thinking back, what have we done, where we went to before.. it just hurt so bad.. )=
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