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Her name is Heidi..♥
Her Birthday is on Jan17th.. ♥
She's a Capricorn Girl.. ♥
Loves Sleeping & Shopping ♥
Lame at times :D
Loves Her Friends alot ♥
Has One Fragile Heart & she HATES it!
Really Want To Earn Alot Of Money..
& Someone to Love, Care & Dote Her..

Her Sadness:

I Wish I Had The Courage To Tell You Exactly How Much I Miss You )':

I'm Willing to Wait foryou

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ARGH WTF LAH! i'm feeling so fucked up, stressed out, and frust right now! what did i do wrong? why must everything turn out like that lah? urghhs! i just wan him to care and love me more like how he did before, why is it so hard? if i could, i really want to turn back time man cries* i miss those times when i'm with him, i miss those times how he contro me, i miss how he pamper me, and all! but now?! i'm like a toy to him, it's like i'm no longer important to him! whenever i online, i saw him online, he would just went off like that, it's really like wtf man! i just wanna talk to him, is that so hard? why can't he just fucking give me a chnce to talk to him, i just miss him so much, and i just don't know what to do anymore, yeahs, peoples been telling me that LDS don't work.. it wouldn't last long, he also told me that his friends said that too, and we both toegther say we will prove and let them see, but now? he told me his phone's lost.. it's like ahh! am i really not important to you anymore? why you won't care about me anymore? am i just so helpless and useless to you? issit so wrong for your gf to ask you for your care and love more to her? you always been telling me you're not like other guys, but i see many of them are of the same.. i really hope you're different from them, and mean your words.. we promised each other that we will love each other forever, and promise to be together till we grow old.. could we make it? i still remember every single words you said.. do you still remember them? i always see your nick having other girl's name, and when i asked you, you would explain to me and all.. i also choose to belive you, and when i choose to belive you, my friends all say i'm stupid and dumb, being cheated by you also don't know.. i don't dare to think, i don't dare to doubt.. i just love you.. what's life without you? you're the first guy that made me so in love with, so addicted and so obsessed with.. what more can i do now? sit here and wait till the time comes and go meet you.. but the problem is, i won't even know whether you would come out to meet me or not.. but no matter how i will still wait, i'm willing to.. yeah i'm stubborn minded, and stupid and idiot enough for having this thinking and wanting this way.. all also because of you.. because of you, i turned nutz.. because of you i cried.. because of you, by just thinking about you.. would really makes me go insanee..! if you never, i beg you.. will you just be honest with me, and make me belive that whatever outside people and what i'm thinking were all wrong? just tell me i'm wrong, and show me that i'm really wrong please..! and if you really don't love me anymore, can just please let me know? please.. at least i could try to give up and forget about you.. i asked you before, i asked you if one day i asked for a break, will you come back to me, you told me you won't.. and that hurts me.. but you explained to me why.. your reason is if i asked for break up means i don't need you anymore, and when i don't need you anymore, why would you come back to me.. but if ever we really broke, yeahs.. i'll be really sad, but definately my answer wouldn't be because i don't need you anymore or i fell for other guys.. noway.. it's because the way you treat me, shows me you don't need me anymore, and keep on pushing me away is what you did, treating me cold is what you're doing now.. you've changed, you're not the old Chee Heen i know anymore.. but i still love you for who you are.. even you told me that no matter how people change you, you still won't change, even i feel like changing you, but i also never did, it's because i love you for who you are baby, if i asked you to change for me.. that wouldn't be you anymore.. sighs.. my love life really fuckedup.. sucks! why me.. i really don't get it.. did i owe you anything during our past life? this is what will i get from you at this life? Y___Y back to top?